“I missed my son’s first steps” – Msaki pens down heartbreak

Msaki gets vulnerable on social media after expressing the pain that comes with missing her son’s first steps.

The singer claims she’s in her dark moment but healing.

However, she’s consoled by her mother’s excitement who witnessed the steps taken and also recorded it as a video clip.

Msaki shared a short clip of the boy’s first steps on her Instagram stories.

The Fetch Your Life vocalist blamed being negligent.

“I missed my son’s first steps, but my mom caught them. Her excitement curves my loss. Instantly. I may have lost a friend (more like a sibling) for good, due to my own negligence. Every time I try to fix it, I stuff up. I’m bad with my phone and have a strange relationship with time. Nothing is never really urgent for me and sometimes my head stays in the clouds for a second too long. I can be frustrating,” Msaki narrated.

Meanwhile, was with Prince Kaybee for 5 days working on Project Hope season 1, with the 10 female vocalists.

Msaki pens down all her pain and how she’s working on healing herself being a Healer.

 

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HEART WAR HOURS : It’s 3:33am in South Africa. I am home in East London, Eastern Cape. These are my hours. I get to tune in when the ‘world’ is asleep to think, pray, chant, sing, create, write and record. I find that being present in these dark hours helps me befriend the shadows and fight for my heart. I missed my son’s first steps, but my mom caught them. Her excitement curves my loss. Instantly. I may have lost a friend (more like a sibling) for good, due to my own negligence. Every time I try to fix it, I stuff up. I’m bad with my phone and have a strange relationship with time. Nothing is never really urgent for me and sometimes my head stays in the clouds for a second too long. I can be frustrating. I am looking for peace. For my intentions to line up with my actions. I am balancing joy and pain. I feel everything. My heart has wide signal receiving range. I still don’t know how to manage that. I feel it in my body. I am grateful still. Deeply so. DARK: Lately, I found myself with courage to go to the shadows. To look at my past traumas, disappointments in an intentional pursuit for healing. I’ve lived alongside my wounds for so long only reacting to ruptures and breakdowns. LIGHT: The Light falls on us gracefully and freely sometimes to a fault. Its easy to focus on that but that does not mean the dark goes away? The darkness needs to be met and coaxed out of hiding, shame, fear. If it isn’t I am a living contradiction. It doesn’t help that my industry puts broken vessels on a pedestal (and then kicks them off it to crash and be cancelled) for reflecting God’s light? – something we all do. I find myself wanting an imbalance for the first time. I want more light than dark. I want lightness of being. I don’t want perfection. I want radical healing for me and others. I want my footprint to be light on this planet while my feet listen to the ground. Diligently. INSIDE (inside) : I am grateful for the new season. It come with such generosity. In the dark parts of my heart I go to sing, remember, cry, purge, rage, say sorry, forgive, to say thank you, to unlearn, let go, listen, lean into a new song. A new way. 💔 ✍🏽❤️ All is well.

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